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Post by whateversam on Apr 8, 2005 0:02:55 GMT -5
I don't see how it could be "brave" to keep living a life that you cannot find hope in. It's not like it takes bravery to face the day-to-day crap in your life to deal with it. It may be brave to deal with social anxity each day, but at the end of the day you still don't see a point in dealing with it if you are depressed. It's mostly because of too much emotional pain that people kill themselves.
With physical pain it's easy to see the damge of a cut, burn, etc. and easy to deal with. You just take some pain killers, clean the wound, and wrap it up. It's not as easy to deal with emotional pain. When you are sad you can try to cheer yourself up, or wait till you are over it. The problem is that when you are depressed you may never get over it, because there isn't a reason for your sadness that you know of. You could be sad for hours, days, weeks, months, or years. Sometimes the only way to deal with it is to drug yourself, but that doesn't always work.
Dealing with these types of problems in life isn't a question of bravery rather a question of choice. The choice is in what why you will deal with it. Some fine natrual ways that work, others use drugs, some use a combination, many "get over it", and a few give up on it all and end it completely.
As for me I have been living through it and have, more-or-less, become dead inside. I have tried to take my life before, but the thought scared me too much and I stoped myself before I was dead. Life is rather boreing, and it sucks to rarely be happy, but it's life I'm use to it. How is it brave of me to live a boreing unhappy life instead of ending it if the thought of ending it scares me more then anything?
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Post by whateversam on Apr 7, 2005 0:01:03 GMT -5
I myself have felt physical pain form intense saddness. I myself never plan on killing myself, but once you understand why someone would it's hard to call them stupid, or a coward. Some might say "oh stop feeling sorry for yourself!" but the problem is your not sorry for yourself you are sad without reason, and there isn't much you can do about it other then drug yourself (legal, or not) and because of that a lot of people end up killing themselve. :/
I have had many close friends become so sad that they wanted to die, and did try to take their own lives while talking to me. I stopped the first person by pleading with them, but after that I just got pissed that they where going on about killing themselves, and asked why they havn't done it allready. >.> <.< Yes, yes it's heartless, but if they want to kill themselves I'm not standing in the way.
I wouldn't do it myself, but I do understand why someone would, and it is annoying when they come to me before they try to end it all. >.> <.<
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Post by whateversam on Apr 5, 2005 23:30:27 GMT -5
Heh. I think everyone's thought of suicide these days. I've had these thoughts to myself, especially a couple years ago. Fortunately, I lived through it, and tried being a bit of an optimist. I don't want to go into great detail about it, but it's when everyone hates you, everywhere you go, you don't even have a place to sit down and cry and move on. If you cry, people will think you're weird. You're entirely paranoid about everything around you. People are watching you. You can't cry, or they'll laugh at you... It was just the constant paranoia I had, I mean, I had nowhere to go to just...be myself. I suppose going to church, or the particular church I went to, helped me out of that stage. No one could judge you there, because they had some f*cked up lives, too. We had time there to just listen to music, talk to people, and sit down/lay on the ground/kneel/whatever and cry. And that got so much off my chest. But I've left church, and haven't been there in a while. And I still have dark times in my life, but I just laugh at it all. Church got me out of the hole, I'm the one keeping myself out. Suicide...is a horrible thing. You should only commit suicide if mini-Richard Simmons are flying out of your butt and they won't stop I agree with Fluffy on this a lot, and I also agree with the pll that realize it takes a lot of guts to kill yourself. Just imagen how Fluffy was. (I've been there as well) Now imagen that your life has been like that for at least as long as you can remember. You do not have any happiness in your day-to-day life, and sometimes you are so sad that you feel physical pain. (yeah I've been there too) All you want to do is cry let out the pain, but at the first sign of sorrow everyone around you calls you weak. At this poit most people welcome death as a sweet release from their life, if they can even call it a life at this point. Unless you have been truly depressed before (about a year or more) you're not going to understand this. I myself have been so very sad, over absoutly nothing, that my chest actualy hurt, physically hurt. I wanted to cry so badly, but couldn't. One look around my dark room and I can easily see sevreal sharp knives. Yes I pick up a knive, yes I cut, and it feels good it really does. At this point I'm thinking about killing myself, and I thnk about what it would mean. The thought of death is terrifying, but it's a welcoming thought compaierd to a life of such sorrow that I can't think stright. Killing yourself takes a LOT and most of the time it's harder then dealing with life, but when you are just that depressed it can bring a smile to your face. The thought of killing yourself really can bring a smile to your face when nothing els does. (or the thought of killing others) Commiting suicide isn't a sper of the moment thing, for most, you usally think about it day after day for months, to years, and even toy with the idea for an equal amout of time. When you are so depressed that you cannot find any joy in life, and have not for years, you like the idea you really do. Life just isn't worth is when you are that sad, and nothing you do helps. When I think of suicide I don't think of how stupid they where, or how much of a coward they must have been to not go on with life. I think of just how depressed they must have been in their day-to-day life, and try to understand how they felt before ending it all. I'm not trying to say suicide is a good idea, and I am against it, but I do understand why people would do it. I think everyone should try to understand both sides to a situation before stating their opinon.
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Post by whateversam on Apr 7, 2005 1:11:42 GMT -5
Sam: God hears (not my real name ) he/she does!? Oh sh** OH SH** I SAID SH** O.O OH F*** *sits down and shuts up* o.o 1900's 58 1910's 69 1920's 99 1930's 131 1940's 168 1950's 236 1960's 278 1970's 380 1980's 467 1990's 408 I'm love my real name, and have always been proud of it, and it's meaning. Stanley - Means: Rocky Meadow 1900's 52 1910's 36 1920's 41 1930's 58 1940's 63 1950's 70 1960's 120 1970's 182 1980's 248 1990's 394
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Post by whateversam on Apr 11, 2005 12:40:25 GMT -5
Nice pics. As you know I quit HS, and would NEVER go to prom...unless it was for an illegal purpose. >.> <.<
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Post by whateversam on Apr 7, 2005 2:13:54 GMT -5
I did have recent pics, but then death struck my hard drive. ; ; The death! I lost everything I hadn't backed up. >< Not much only about ten pics, but I still lost them.
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Post by whateversam on Apr 7, 2005 2:03:00 GMT -5
I would never brag that my PC could run Doom 3 the game was a big let down. It does have good lighting and graphics, but was over hyped. The game play sucks, and the story doesn't go far...if anywhere. Try running FarCry on your computer. Oh yes it will look good, it will run even better, and the sound will knock you to the floor. ;D THEN brag! ^.^ Anyway this is about pics...I just went nuts when I saw the PC talk...I'm a bigger geek then ST....or any of you! I just don't have the cash. >.> <.< Out of date POS computer. Here are my pics. ^^ >< Just have the two pics for now, and it's old. My hair is longer now, but needs a trim. And ONLY A TRIM. *twitch* mess my hair up and die!
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