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Post by Little Syxx on Jan 25, 2005 21:16:17 GMT -5
I suppose I should share a problem... what problem do I have? Um... Oh yeah! I can't cry. Doesn't bother me. Its just weird. Neither can I. Even when I want to I just can't...eh, I'm sure if somebody cracked me in the ass with a hammer that's get the tears flowin' again. On a more serious note, I have a very simmilar problem rjxsapri. Much like yourself I have alot of trouble communicating with people and just can't stand being in a crowd or any area filled with a large amount of people. I've had friends over my life but they always seemed to ditch me for the "cooler" folks (and the fact I have a physical disabillity that made me the target of insults and other assorted unpleasentries since Third grade and who wants be hanging out with somebody who others are trying to convince is'nt worth thier time) and there's really only one person I concider a friend in my life right now. I've meet other people with my friend once in awhile but when I say my goodbyes I know I'm pretty much saying it for good. It's gotten so bad I can't even bring myself to attend school anymore and have just been doing home schooling, of course that's just led to awhole bunch of other problems for me . I've lost entire nights of sleep wondering what could have been different in my life had I been more confident in myself. My only advice is to just take it one step at a time. If you have'nt you can try therapy (thought I'm doing it right now and it does'nt seem to be doing crap...oh well, it's not like I'm paying for it! *Hugs O.H.I.P.*) or you can just force yourself to go out a meet other people. Obviously you should'nt start by going to some huge party but just try to find some way of meeting a small group of other people. I'm not sure how exactly, but I'm sure you can find a way . Hopefully this can be seen as atleast a little helpful. I'm not exactly great when it comes to giving advice to others.
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StoneTitan
Super Saiyan
How do you prove that you exist? Maybe we dont exist...
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Post by StoneTitan on Jan 26, 2005 9:10:25 GMT -5
Ok, I live my life quietly. I don't hurt anybody, and try to be as nice with everyone as I can be. But still, I haven't been able to start with the life a common 19 yr old should have. And I don't mean having a girlfriend or stuff like that...I just mean talking. My biggest problem my be my low self-steem. My family tells me that I should have more confidence like if it was just thinking about it and that was it. But no, I'm like afraid of everything, afraid of failing, afraid of succeeding, afraid of not doing anything at all. I'm mostly afraid of my future. Another thing that kills me is that for some reason I feel like...I hate...myself. I find something in me...repulsive. I prefer to pretend I'm ignoring them and not give the idea that I feel sorry for myself or such. I prefer a million times to hold it all inside me. ... Wow! I can relate to most of your post(The part up there) The fear of failing is far from fun, alot of the time i want others to do the stuff, Becorse i trust in there abilitys more then my own. The only time i don't have that kind of confidence problem, is when i get annoyed and the few times i get angered. Im not much for partys. Last year i tryed to go to 3 partys at scool, i hoped they would be more fun then the partys in the erly scool years. But no I got bored and ended up walking around the scool many hours eatch time.(I hate dancing) Hmm... thinking about it maybe im scared of that kind of emotions. Im 19 years old and have never "loved" anyone. I like my family and friends. But the kind of love for a counter part... never felt it. From the age of 5 till now i havent kissed anyone, not even members of my family. Up till 1½ years ago i would get embarassed just when other people asked me about girls.(some teased me about it) Now i can easyly tell them i dont care about having a counterpart(maybe in some years who knows???) I like the freedom of doing what i want when i want.
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Post by SKJTapion on Jan 26, 2005 11:49:47 GMT -5
Blimey... seems like lack of confidence is a major problem here...
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Post by YoshikiRose on Jan 26, 2005 19:46:43 GMT -5
I'm much different than you all, because I DEFINATELY have confidence But yes, I have a constant fear of failing. My band teacher noticed my raw talent in all of the band instruments (he let us play all of them at the beginning of the year to find the one most suited for us, but it was most difficult for me, because as I blew air through all of them, they all sounded good ) he didn't know what to do, and he fluffed out that we didn't have many trombones that year, and I volunteered immediately to play that instrument He was like "Eh....it would look a little funny on a small girl." But I was just all "I don't care! Sounds like fun!" Oh, yes, and that was the first time I had even SEEN most of the instruments I tried, much less touched or played on. Try to be optimistic in all situations. Well, most situations. Not in funerals or anything That's not a very good time to be optimistic. Although, I'd probably be optimistic anyways, knowing myself. I'm one of those people who dance on graves..dead people are overrated, anyways
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Post by SKJTapion on Jan 27, 2005 16:44:34 GMT -5
Thats good. I used to have no confidence. Now I have quite a bit. Course, everyday faces me with new problems. Some small, some, like today, huge.
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Post by gokuromario on Jan 28, 2005 14:24:25 GMT -5
this is good
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Post by Marccio on Jan 28, 2005 14:26:15 GMT -5
I too experience big challenges and problems everyday. But if I get up every morning, look in the mirror and am able to say, "That is a good person". Then I can face any of them head on.
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Post by DeLaRocha99 on Jan 28, 2005 19:53:38 GMT -5
I too experience big challenges and problems everyday. But if I get up every morning, look in the mirror and am able to say, "That is a good person". Then I can face any of them head on. That's attitude of the year right there, lol ;D
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Post by YoshikiRose on Jan 29, 2005 0:09:19 GMT -5
Hum. I never look in the mirror in the morning. I don't like to look at myself.
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Post by Marccio on Jan 29, 2005 0:28:23 GMT -5
That's attitude of the year right there, lol ;D I have my moments ;D
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